
Although the surroundings are different, the nightmares that I’ve been having the past few years involve some of the same things.
It starts like a regular dream, but turns nightmarish when a glass of liquid, varying between full to 1/4 full, is randomly sitting there. Without thinking, I grab it and chug it down. As it burns my throat and works its way down, I am horrified at what I’ve done. I try to get away, to make things right, but random glasses or bottles show up and I drink them empty.
Sometimes I get in a car to drive away, but either crash (I’m fine while the car is not) or I park it and run from it, for fear of harming someone with it. It gets so frightening and intense that it wakes me up. Usually takes me a half hour to recover from it. I have to check my faculties to make sure it didn’t happen.
Interpretation
Being sober for 3 1/2 years now, “falling off the wagon” is a fear that can cause nightmares. Drinking dreams/nightmares is something that a lot of recovering alcoholics have, but it’s embarrassing to talk about. This post is not for pity points or glory. Those who know about it, or have gone through it: just nod after reading this, enjoy your day, and know you’re not alone.
